"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"
I'm ready to make MY new ending!

Monday, October 24, 2005

Weekend and a baby for a husband !!!!!

Well I did sorta ok this weekend. I really need to stop letting my husband sabotage my dieting. He gets all pout-y like a 3 year old and starts complaining how he can't do this diet and that food isn't fun any more....does he not get the point.....FOOD Is NOT supposed to be fun, it's supposed to be nourishing...right??? I haven't weighed since my 5+ on Friday, so I'll wait until Wednesday and see how bad we are doing or maybe how great.....The power of the mind and amazing thing!!!

SO anyway, I gave into him again this weekend....I think going out of town this Wednesday and being away from him for a while, will at least help me keep on track even if it is eating out and restaurant food that I have zero control over cooking methods, I just basically cross my fingers and hope they listened when I ordered, and then I dab the shine off my fish or chicken when they bring it to the table.... So we'll see how I do until Wednesday and then I'll weigh again when I get back on the 6th.

I know I can. I know I can. In know I can! I KNOW I CAN!!!!!!

Friday, October 21, 2005

OK, Friday and I'm up five pounds!!!!! GRRRRR

I know it is probably due to my period and water retention. But it has also been a not so on program week....and YES! I am blaming my period. It started last Saturday night, we really wanted burgers, so we got McDonald's and no I couldn't just get a regular homestyle, I had a BigMac and fries (and then they supersized them for free, since we had to wait, and threw in an apple pie...and yes I ate them all)....then Sunday, I wanted pizza, so we made our own....I bought dough at the local pizza place and put on my own toppings...goat cheese, blue cheese, ham and mushrooms.....mmmmmmm.....then the rest of the week was pretty on plan, except that Tuesday I wanted something sweet and had 1/2 cup of mocha almond fudge ice cream, and then Wednesday I went to the grocery store and walked by the fried chicken and had to have a piece.....so yeah! My diet was totally off last week, and between that and my monthly.....I'm up 5 lbs......

I'm seriously back on the program this week, it's easier without the mad cravings.....I travel for 10 days starting Wednesday, but I think I have the travel thing down. I'm making pumpkin muffins to take as breakfasts and I should be fine.......

GRRRRRRRR, but it's my own fault.....but then I know I can jump back on... I still want to lose another 20 lbs by the end of the year.... I think I can I think I can I KNOW I CAN!!!!!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Ugh,.....cramps and all!!!!!!

I hate being a woman sometimes. Well specifically once a month....Yes I got my faithful friend last night and I am in pain.... I have cramps, I am in a bad mood and want to eat everything on the planet, as long as it is breaded, fried or sweet and creamy.....

I often wonder why women get PMS and cramps and pain. I wish there were a magic pill, I think it's the reason why I won't stay faithful to my diet plan this week. I am going to try, I am making ground turkey spaghetti sauce and having it over rice noodles. I guess if it sucks I can always throw cabbage and other calorie light veggies to make some sort of stew soup, which I normally like but today I am just not in the mood to watch my calories, I really want a gigantic bowl of real spaghetti, or lasagna or pasta of some sort....mmmmm mac and cheese even sounds great, and a big bowl of ice cream.....

I'll let you all know what I really end up eating later.....

Friday, October 14, 2005

23.8!!!!! yahooooo!!!!!

OK so I can say that being back on the program has totally helped. I'm down 2 lbs from before vacation. A total of 23.8#'s!!! I never thought I could do it and continue to lose weight, this program is working, and it's been easy enough - as long as I am organized -

I have been trying new types of foods, yesterday I made mexican chicken and cilantro casserole. I cooked enough for a latino family and extended family. So needless to say I have enough for a few days of meals, thank goodness for the freezer, so that when I get sick of it I can freeze it in portion controlled packages for a later date. I also made meatloaf, yes turkey - god I've had enough turkey and chicken lately you'd think I would grow feathers - and it was rather tasty. So I'm excited about keeping cooking and eating my way to thin-ness.

I have also tried to walk everyday. I hate exercise, I really really HATE it!!! but I am trying to walk everyday and today I promise I will do my rubber-band weights.....

Now the next dilemma, finding winter fruits???? Is there anything that's not an apple or pear?

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Woo-hooo!!!! Vacation #'s gone!

Yes!!!!! It's only Tuesday, I am down 6lbs since Friday and am 1/2lb below pre-vacation weight. I am being totally stick (with the exception of some salt, I need flavor) and AK and I are walking every day..... Today I'll have to do bands and walk, but it's coming off!!!! yeah!
AK is still complaining about feeling like "he has a stone in his stomach" and then rubs it like Budah....it drives me crazy.........but then his problem....he has to do this on his own. I can't make myself responsible for his dieting, but he's sticking to it. I think he will lose weight and would lose faster if he actually believed in himself.....

As for me......down 21lbs~!~ and counting.....

Friday, October 07, 2005

Back from vacation......sniff.......

Ok after two weeks of vacation...and boy did we have a great time.....and no diet...I was totally scared to get on the scale, I mean just think I had to recheck my luggage from Wednesday to Thursday and my luggage gained 4 lbs over night...yes I yelled at the airlines, I figured that AmericaWest is the airline who said I can't! but all in all, aside the airtravel....we had a great time.....so anyway back to weight, I onlu gained.......

5lbs!!!!!!
All in all not too bad.....huh! I was expecting a higher weight gain, so today I am back on, totally on the program, and I will lose thes 5lbs this week if it kills me. I already told AK my reward for the next 20lbs is going to be a day at the spa...and since it will be 40lbs I also get a trip to Vegas......so yeah rewards that are not food for once....I have to make other rewards available......
So anyway....I loved Cancun, next year though we have to go somewhere else.....without so many newlyweds (who by the way are so super miserable, never seen so many unhappy young people) but it was pretty, and fun and now ready for a next place to visit.....
Work is killing me, but it's a job, I want to be wealthy and not really work.....but then again, I would go crazy!!!! without work.....