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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Midway -Vacation.....

I have been on holiday for the last 7 days....and yes.....7 to go...... I think I've stayed pretty much at weight, no big bulges growing and my clothes are fitting the same if not maybe, possibly a bit loser..... though I must admit the food here is awesome, and then the ever flowing tropical beverages that with or without alcohol can be lethal to any diet......

On vacation we have done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!! yeah relaxing by the pool, floating, reading, maybe a little walking on the beach, but really minimal effort. As the days go by I start noticing we are waking up later and going to bed earlier...the true sign of relaxation......

Tomorrow for sure I'll go sailing a bit and maybe walk to the nearest town......

I have had to heal a bit, I got sun poisoning, yeah once you get it you get it every year, went to the hotel doc, got an antihistamine and cortisone shot 2 days in a row, and taking some antihistamine and some lotion against the rash...the rash is gone so I still have to be careful, but then again and excuse to find a shady spot in or near the pool and read....or nap....or nothing.......

I'll post more later....maybe even pictures (which we by the way haven't taken since we got here)

Monday, September 19, 2005

Scallops.....Mexican style...


Last night I made scallops, I figured I could do it mexican style...

Sliced onion, bell peppers, chopped garlic, sliced mushrooms, stewed tomatoes (NSA), a small jar of NSA tomato sauce, a bunch of cilantro barely chopped, two serrano peppers, and a bag of flash frozen scallops I found at the grocery store, the bag was 12 oz raw, so I made 4 portions out of it, and the juice of a couple of lines. Anyway....let it stew for a while....and over rice.....delicioso! if I say so myself. I got 4 portions out of it......

ok, back home and getting ready to leave again!!!!

I just got back from a week away. I was cringing at the thought of getting on the scale, since I wasn't totally on program last week, I mean I tried to make "good choices" but how can you resist chips at a mexican restaurant, or ordering something yummy with coconut milk at a Thai restaurant??????

So after a week, I got on the scale this morning and had actually lost 1.6lbs. I have no lost officially 20.1 #'s!!!!!! yahooo!!!!!

Now I have to think of strategy when vacationing. I am going for two weeks, yes I know, spoiled, but I need a vacation, a break and beach...so CANCUN here we come!

I'll try to go for the seafood and lean protein and stay away from mexican delicious-ness as much as I can. But will I be able to stay away from tropical drinks? I mean I know they are totally empty calories and I could save for other stuff, but a pina colada does taste good in the pool.

I'll try to post from the beach, but may be gone for a while..... ha!

Monday, September 12, 2005

Thank goodness for Airline seatbelts????

So I traveled yesterday....and this week is going to be tough since I have zero to no control over the preparation of my food. But I received a wonderful surprise when I sat down in my seat on the airplane......

I've lost 4 more pounds so that makes a total of 18.5...yahoo, but I can't really tell the difference, I have so much to lose, and my clothes are baggy to begin with, or stretch, so anyway, I had people ask me, "I bet you can tell" The truth is NO! I can't, or not yet....but anyway.....

Yesterday I sat on the airplane in my seat (on one of those little swamp hoppers) and I tugged at the seatbelt to let it out as loose as it goes, sucked it in, and buckled.....well letting my breath out and opening my eyes, I realized that the seatbelt fit just fin, I actually had to tighten it a bit.....and I fit perfectly... I mean my butt didn't touch the person's sitting next to me.... I had room.....Yahoooooo for me....

Today I went out for lunch, Mexican, my downfall. I ordered a chile relleno - at this place they don't fry it or cover it with stuff, or maybe they do, but I asked for it not fried, no cheese, no sour cream, no beans and extra lettuce tomato. It was great, covered in a tomatillo sauce. I ate 1/2 at lunch and will eat the other half as an afternoon snack......


So coolness.....I fit in the airplane seat!

Friday, September 09, 2005

Update on the scale saga....

I finally told AK that unless he was 400+ pounds (I researched on the scale we have it goes to 380lbs), that the scale should work...so after debating, I brought the scale over to him, was going to make him stand on it in front of me...he clicked and was about to step on....unitl....I yelled..."wait for the zeros".....

Ok it's not that he was too big for the scale...but to much of a M-A-N to know how to use it.....a bit on the retarded side too....but it was funny......

Also, last night I made some beef slime...bell peppers, onions, lean beef, etc. Enough to make 6 portions....but had to rinse the beef after cooking, I guess the mix of spices just made it taste so NASTY!!!!!, it reminded me of when we were kids rinsing the "Irish Stew" mom made under the sink...I laughed at myself, dumped back into the pan and stewed with just cayenne and lime. Irish stew.....I'll never forget.....

So anyway, I did bands yesterday...today I don't feel like walking or bands, so tomorrow I'll have to do bands and walking, too bad so sad....

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Scales.....

AK wants to buy a new scale, the one we have doesn't work for him (yes, he is a bit on the heavy side too, and I think he goes over the scale max...heeeee......few seconds), I keep telling him to keep trying to use it and one day, it would record his weight. But I also understand him wanting to see even gradual little steps in weight loss. At our size, really we could lose about 20-30 lbs and still wear the same size clothes, so it's hard to tell by just your clothes.......

Why are we so totally dependent on the scale? I know it's just a number. Part of me wants to change the scale to kilos, so that at least the number is smaller. It gets smaller every week, but I want a huge drop and fast, and at least weekly drops keep me motivated.

I am totally bored at work this week, I fly to H-town next week so that will be a challenge again on my diet, but I know I can do it.....

AK and I go on vaca on the 21st, we're going for two weeks. I know it will be hard to stay on program, but then I just hope I don't gain my entire loss back.....If I could stay flat those two weeks...... I AM NOT GOING TO START GETTING ANXIOUS ABOUT EATING ON VACA, IT IS STILL 2 WEEKS AWAY .......... plus it is vaca!

not much more, we made slimey shrimp on rice last night, a bit bland, but looking forward to some more cooking adventures.......

Going to the spa for waxing.....ayyyyyyyyy

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Learning to cook.....


I was getting sick of just a place chicken breast and 1/2 rice or shrimp and rice noodles. I wanted some combination food (food that has different foods, protein, carbs, veggies, all in one) so I tried and made delicious shepherd's pie..... I was so excited. I don't think it was anything like traditional shepherd's pie, but I tried and succeeded in making 8 portion, 2 oz protein, 1/2 cup carb, 1/2 veggie meal.......

I made it spicy by adding some serrano peppers and cayenne......

Oh an my secret weapon.....celery seed....it actually makes food salt without being salt....YES!!!! I am a salt addict!

So anyway....I am not stepping on the scale until Sunday.....or at least that's what I say now!

AK is back to being normal....so at least one less worry.......

I'm sick of work....I'm grouchy.....I think I'll go for my walk now....get this crabby-ness out of my system.......

I loved my dinner last night.....it looked like a ton, and it was just my portion that I am allowed on the program....yahoo!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Weekend.......No movement on the scale.....6 more inches!

Ok 2 things that frustrate me.......

After AK left Friday morning, about mid-day I get an email that says..."peace? you know I love you!!!" - So after his acting like a baby in the morning he is a baby mid day, he couldn't call me like a grown up???? whatever....I I packed and off we went to San Francisco...more on the trip later.....

I weighed myself in the bathroom....283.5lbs! Yahoo down 13.5lbs!!! I decided to move the scale to the garage, flatter surface and not in the way (my bathroom is weirdly designed, so the garage is a better option for me.....) anyway, I moved the scale from the bathroom to the garage, 288.5, exactly 5lbs more....So, I move it back to the bathroom 283.5...hmmmmm.....well I guess there is a 5lb difference from the garage to the bathroom. So now I am 5lbs heavier than I originally thought, I guess I still am down 13.5lbs, but my start weight was over 300lbs....I though I started at 297, but no!!!!! I started at 302! OK I'm on my way down, so no worries about the starting point anymore....but looking towards a finish line.....slowly but surely.......but still.......ok one thing I know for sure...I will never be 300 anymore, or 290.....so at least something.......boooo-hooooooooo!....ya-hoo!!!!???? (For those of you who didn't know my exact starting weight, now you know....but don't spread the word....it's embarrassing enough to admit to myself - but "admitting there is a problem was the first step to fixing it" - so don't remind me of the number I was but the number I'm becoming)

San Francisco - I totally blew my diet out the ball park......the good thing is I still am at 288.5lbs as of last night, I am back on the program and will start going down, again.....so I didn't lose anything over the weekend but didn't gain either..... I did measure and have lost 6 more inches off my body, that is 12 inches since I started on Aug 3rd. So hey not bad right???? I think I am probably retaining fluids from this weekend change in diet, more salt, more sugar, more fat....so this week I'll be down for sure!!!!!

BTW...AK decided to stay home today...so he could "keep me company". So he keeps asking me, when am I going to make the chicken and turkey sausage I make for our protein snacks..... finally I said "when the meat defrosts" so yeah...back to "why is he such a baby".....probably because I let him, and/or make him one!

So off I go to meet my new best friend (my pressure cooker) and make some tender, juicy chicken breast and rice.....

Friday, September 02, 2005

Do men just look for arguments sometimes????

I've been wondering about this for sometime......

This morning AK was ready and on his way out, he had already said goodbye and from bed I said goodbye. I just wanted 5 more minutes. 2 minutes later he stops into the room and tries pulling the covers telling me it's time to get up. I have to wonder....WHY??? I said, I want 5 more minutes, I'll start doing my deal in a minute......

So from there we go to....."if you have nothing to do, look around the house, it's the little things that need attention".....

Of course I blew him off and told him to go to work, ahhhh but no! he had to keep mumbling and making snide comments until I finally got pissed!.....WHAT DO YOU WANT!!!! WHAT LITTLE THINGS!!!!

SO I get something like there's been an ice chest on the back porch "drying" for a week and it's still there....those kinds of things you NEED to notice.....

SO I started down my inventory of little things I do and he doesn't like.....
  1. wash clothe
  2. clean kitchen (he messes up as the cook)
  3. unload dishwasher (since dieting there are alot more dishes and pots and pans to clean)
  4. answer the phone/deal with all utilities/supplies/water/garbage/insurance/etc......

So as I kept going down the list he was all about "I better go now" yeah he better!!!!!

What is it....wanting to argue...I mean if you know me, you know I love to argue...and usually I win...so what's the point?????? "Negative Attention" ????? Like a 3 year old.....I'll have to pay more attention to the wonderfulness......

whatever......

UGH....and I'm sore from the freaking bands yesterday..... and I have to go to deal with one of those little things I don't do....the water delivery guy is here!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Body Sculpting Bands....Eeek!!!

OK, I did this for the first time today...I need to do twice a week according to the program.....

First I needed a straight back chair...to begin with I have no real chairs, I have a barstool....so it's taller than a regular chair but can adjust the movements, etc......

So logistics in place, I get started.....

Movements that seem so easy are so hard!!!! OUCH!!!!! But I did it!!!! Upper body check, lower body tomorrow....

I also started walking....so later this evening I'll go on my walk....I basically go around the neighborhood, bit it's all hilly so I go down, then up and down, the around and 30 minutes later I am out of breath and at home.......I'm hoping next week I can start doing to lookps in the same 30 minutes....or not....but I want to do two loops.....

On AK....why why why???????? So tomorrow we leave for the weekend, san Francisco... All he talks about are the wonderful restaurants and wants ME to plan out the weekend, basically around food...... I've pitched it back to him, for him to come up with....I'll struggle enough at restaurants, much more if I end up picking the restaurant for stuff I like....(noodles, cream, sauce, vitamin "G")

So anyway......more later......