Ok...beginning of week 5.....

I weighed in today, I've lost 13.5#'s and 6 inches off my body. It's also my period week. So I think that in 4 weeks I've done great!!!!! Yeah...cheers for me!!!!

On the little website for the 6WBMO, I have joined New Body University, I enrolled late (it's free) so I got accepted in the New Body Community College. It'll be fun, since just like this I need all sorts of support and stuff.

The program is super cheesy, but basically you are competing with yourself, not on pounds lost per week (which I check) but also how well you do all the stuff that helps you lose weight, drink water, walk, body sculpting bands, etc. So the more you do you get "prizes" or icons for your signature....super cheese, but hey if it motivates why not.....

The plan is to go to San Francisco for the weekend, AK of course didn't want to stay put, he claims he is doing the diet and then drinks red wine with dinner, but I must admit his portion size has come way down to normal people food. I hope he loses weight for him, for his health. But if not.....I'll be skinny and instead of calling us a double O couple we can be a walking 10!!!!!

Oh my god....can I get any cheesier today.......

Off to the store to buy tomatoes..........and then walking and then the bands.... I want my points this week!!!!!

The weekend! @#^%$^$*#!!!!!!!!!!!

OK......so we didn't go anywhere.....but Saturday was a tough day for me.... It seemed like I was hungry all day, but I really wasn't I just wanted to eat everything I wasn't supposed to.....I'm assuming it's because I'm about to get my period, but still I wanted, pizza, ice cream, cookies, fried chicken....Taco Hell......MMMMMMMMmmmmmmm, but I held out....by dinner time I was pacing the kitchen....opening and closing the freezer door, when finally from the living room cries AK, hey don't blow it, you've lost so much already, even you back titties are almost gone....gee, leave it to men to make you feel better.....I grabbed by grilled chicken and pluot and went off to bed.....

Yesterday I step on the scale and I'm up 2#'s.....I know I shouldn't get on the scale but once a week, and that our bodies change all week, and that I'm probably starting my period today or tomorrow, but gee.....I hate being a girl sometimes...!!!!! So I was ok on the diet all day, we cleaned house, washed clothes, etc......then last night I blew it!!!! Like BLEW IT!!!!!! I had McDondald's, Big Mac and fries for dinner~!!!!! YES!!! it was good, but then all night I felt like puking, I guess I really am used to no grease, and I went all out.....

Today, I am back on track, had my oatmeal and eggwhites for breakfast, and will have chicken and fruit for snack.....

I'm going to start walking around the block a few times for a fat burning cardio workout.....

I hate gaining, I hate breaking diet....no I'll stick it out, and hopefully will actually be down by Midweek when I weigh in again.....

No "weekend trip"....yay~~

So we've decided not to go away for the weekend....this will be good...today I'm headed to COSTCo to buy a boat-load of chicken, tuna and ground turkey. AK seems to be hanging in there, but of course is already complaining about the lack of salt, sugar, alcohol, etc.....

So I told him he could do it his way, I'd do it my way.....

He keeps looking at me and telling me I'm losing size, but hopes my boobs don't get smaller.....man I pray everyday that my boobs go down, I want to wear bra's with 2-3 hooks vs. 4-6 hooks....you know what I mean!!!!!!

I think I've lost some size in my belly.....but it's hard for me to tell.......

I lost one more lb! 12.5!!!! that's alot in my 3 weeks, 2 days...... I have to stop checking the scale....but I just want to double check, make sure it's not making any mistakes.........the scale that is.......

But yeah.....keep going...I can do it....and I'll be fine......

Back in the saddle....and back to reality

HB and I dyed my hair, really she dyed and I sat....AK made fun of us, as usual, but it came out great....best $17 I've ever spent....

HB left yesterday,boo-hoo,...we had fun, now back to the real world work, and diet.....ugh!!!!

Good news is that I lost another 1.5#s so cool a total of 11.5lbs. I'm going to stop getting on the scale, but once a week.

I start my workout regime today....basically walking....and then 2 times a week I'll do resistance bands....

AK has decided he's doing diet, and started yesterday...I believe it'll last maybe to the weekend and then it's all over. He wants to "go away" for the weekend.... I don't care I've figured out traveling pretty well, but UGH.....why not stay home and do nothing, or go to the beach....but we'll "do something" for sure......

Well of to work......

1 more pound, fishing and puking.....

Well Monday night I sneaked on the scale...paranoid I know...but voila, had lost one more pound...I was so happy and of course AK congratulated me....but in the meantime he still made slime.....whatever, he claimed it was a low fat/ low salt version but still had cheese and noodles, I ate less than 1/4 of what I usually would eat so that no feelings would be hurt, but felt full, and like I didn't want anymore....so yay my stomach is getting smaller and recognizing good/bad food.....

Yesterday HB and I went fishing, like real deep see fishing....we knew we were in trouble as soon as we left the doc and the captain says over the speaker....this ride will be bumpy, we will encounter 35-40 mi/hr winds and swells of 15-20ft.....neat, neither one of us had taken any Dramamine....so as we swelled and tried to fish, the first person started puking.....LOUD, REAL LOUD.... so of course, chain reaction HB and I puked and fished for 5 hours....it was loads of fun......we did catch 18 fish between the 2 of us, we let some go because the limit is 10 per person, so we were hoping for larger ones....at the end of the day, I think I have enough fish to last AK and I a few weeks....yay......

I felt hungover after the boat ride and all either one of us could think of is good ole vitamin "g" GREASE.....so we ordered a pizza and ate it down.....in no time, and took naps...we felt loads better......

last night for dinner AK had made pork for tacos, and I made some of the fish..... I had 3 tacos and felt full....so yesterday was not a good diet day, but had fun fishing.....

Today back on the wagon....eating my oatmeal and eggwhites for breakfast......

Yahooooooooo...10lbs.....

Husbands!!! Why!!!!!

So my little sister is visiting for a few days.... We've had a blast, she made me go kayaking (yes!!!) after I complained and whinged about how my fat but wouldn't fit in the kayak, bla bla bla....well it fit....and we road a double one, I in the back and little HB in the front, frankly I was surprised the kayak didn't turn into a 90 degree angle and just have my fat but in the water and HB in the air.......but it was fun and a workout.....

We came home and AK was pouting and complaining he was "starving"...he decided to try the program with me......so we ate, he moaned, I fed him and left to go fishing.....

When we got home from fishing I was received by the saddest sap in the world, moaning about being starving, and he couldn't eat since I wasn't there to tell him what to eat.....ok this got on my last nerve so I said, why not read the program,plus I told you to eat some protein and fruit.....well bla bla bla later....the rest of the evening was him looking at me miserable..... it got worse when I came out of the bathroom to shout....."3 more pounds!!!!!, that's a total of 9!!!!!!" So then I got the lecture.....eating is the only thing I enjoy, and I enjoy cooking for you and now you are taking that away.....No I didn't I said... he can cook for me all he wants as long as it is fish or turkey/chicken no oil and no salt......no noodles, etc..... I finally broke down and said he had to either support me or stop ruining or trying to ruin my program... I got an of course I support you but I can't do that program, starving all the time......

I went to sleep, a bit upset at him, but excited about my loss.....

Today HB and I went boogie boarding, yes she made me.... In the freezing cold water with no wet suit (not that I want to look like sham's sister, but still cold water) we had a blast, did some fishing and then came home for the tennis shoes to go for a bit of a hike.....Boy she's making me workout, but hey it's good for me.... so far today I've been perfectly perfect on my program......

When we got home, AK was sitting with a bowl of spaghetti......and said he had bought stuff to make slime for dinner (super yummy, noodles, ground beef, cream, butter and cheese) I'm going to have to say NO!!! and HB will help......he is also making pork in the oven to make shredded pork tacos..... What part of I'm on a diet does he not get..... I know he's just upset that he can't get motivated to be on a program and I am down 9#SE Yahoo...... But hey it took me forever to get motivated.... , one day he can get motivated or not, no one is forcing anyone and it's not a competition......

.....but I lost 9 lbs!!!!! Hurray!!!!!! For me!!!!!!!!

Today was a blast!!!!

Phew!!!!! 2 weeks, 6 lbs!!!!

Woo-Hoo.....

I think this program may be working. I've been on it for two weeks, and not perfectly on it either since I've been traveling sice I started on the 3rd....6lbs!!!! wow......so we'll see what happens this week, meanwhile....
I lost 6lbs, when I got home from the airport my husband made me spaghetti.....you could poison me with it, so out went the diet in case noodles....yum......I feel a bit bad, but not that bad, it was good.....

Yesterday my little sister arrived, I was great all day long and then at dinner I chose beef instead of the chicken-kabob's I had grilled for myself......sooooooo

Today is a new day and I will be perfectly, perfect on my eating plan today.....

Oh by the way, my husband has been so super annoying lately, wants to diet, but doesn't and doesn't know how and he was going to be on his own plan, and not and whine whine whine!!!! So this morning he gives me the news that he'll be on my program but I'll have to "help" him and tell him what to eat and not, since he doesn't want to read the book....so more work for me, planning two diets, when he'll give up after a day or two of doing it.....GRRRRRRRR

On my way........

Today is the day.....I am starting and also traveling......I'll be in a hotel for over a week.....I can do this....I know I can.......I have to......

Starting/Deciding.....

After thinking and thinking, I am starting a new program to help in the battle of the bulge....I am going to do the 6 week body makeover (6WBMO)....it's the one on the informercial, where you "blueprint" yourself and decide which foods and exercise are the best for you and your body type.....

I am an "A" that means that I have the slowest metabolism out there....yeah I already new that, you can tell by size.......

So the plan is to eat 5-6 meals a day... 2oz of protein and either a carb or fruit depending on the schedule.....my proteins have been reduced to chicken/turkey (white meat) and fish (low fat....excludes salmon for example)...fruits are the basics (plum, apricot, peach, grapefruit....no watermelon....darn!) and carb is 1/2 cup rice or potato....I can do this I know I can.....I am going to do this......

Background.....

I have been dieting all my life, My mom was fat (until she did WW and lost a ton of weight), my dad was fat, and I'm fat......I figured I was doomed to be fat. I do remember a time when I was at an Ok weight, still overweight but ok, I wore size 12/14 clothes........ahhhh those were the days.....
I married in 2000, and had just moved back from an expat assignment in Bolivia....I had managed to lose some weight while I was there, I cam back to the US and weighed in at 215.... I was happy I had gotten up to about 240-250lbs and felt good at my size 18/20....I figured I could keep losing......

Big mistake......since then I not only gained back what I had lost but my current weight is right around 280lbs. I still didn't think much of it until I renewed my driver's license....to see the difference in pictures.....it was shocking, sad, alarming.......

I've gone to dr's for checkups and stuff, and yeah my weight kept going up, but somehow they all beat around the bush and never really made me focus (how could they, I didn't focus or care)....

I have been thinking of getting pregnant, having children off and on, and I write it off to "I enjoy my freedom"......

I really think if I haven't gotten pregnant it's because I'm overweight....bottom line....and then, do I really want to be pregnant when starting out this heavy?????? Dr's say I'm insulin resistant, and that is the reason I can't do it....well....reality bites, but if I am insulin resistant, it's because I'm overweight and it may be harder to lose the lbs....but I'm going to do it.....

It's not about getting pregnant, or about wearing cute clothes in colors that are not red, black or navy blue (fat girl colors), really it's about me.....

I go on vacation and I want to scuba dive (I doubt I could find a wet suit in a size 24, and then if there was one, I'd be confused with shamu the wale......no thanks!)....I want to ride on zip lines, I want to horseback, without feeling sorry for the hores, etc... you get my drift......

So I am on a definite mission to lose lbs, get healthy, I am only 33 years old....so I can do it....I know I can......