Ok...it's been a while

I just have been in a rut for weeks. Can't seem to get motivated to get going again, it's almost like I lose 3 and gain 3 constantly. Maybe it's Christmas, who knows......ugh????

This week I'm in Houston again, my life is ok.....

Mi sis and I went for indian food, the food was in my body about 40 minutes and I had major gut wrenching pain and barely made it to the lobby BR at work. So if the food isn't in your body longer than an hour, does it have to count towards your calories????? hmmmmmm

New week.....major detox!

Ok, I gained 3lbs while out of town. Phew! For a second there I thought that I would have done worse.

So I started back up yesterday, and by last night my body was aching, I mean headache, feeling queasy! I know it's just my body complaining and needing more sugar, salt, fat. It gets used to all of these things so easily and hates letting them go! Wow!

I am a bit more conformed after blowing steam about the job, I while trudge along and get things done, and then that's that. One of these days things will change or not, until I make them change.

Just like dieting, it has to be done by me, change is brought on by me and no one else....

RIGHT????

OK.....will take advantage to complain....

I am so sick of work....I can virtually say that I am bored, un-challenged and have lost the little respect I had left for the leadership of the company. My most loved and hated boss, just got the boot, he was the big cheese, so I know changes are coming. AK doesn't want me to quit until I have something else, but I am afraid that if I don't do something soon I will not only sabotage all I've done diet-wise, but will lose my mind....

Why can't people (men) understand that I don't need a corporate career, I just want a secure (whatever that means) but I want to have fun at my job again. Maybe the realization that I hate what I do.....or that I just want to change careers, or who knows....

I had to take the time to blow steam....last week I sucked I mean mega sucked at staying on any diet.

This week I will do better.....I know I will!!!!

Weekend and a baby for a husband !!!!!

Well I did sorta ok this weekend. I really need to stop letting my husband sabotage my dieting. He gets all pout-y like a 3 year old and starts complaining how he can't do this diet and that food isn't fun any more....does he not get the point.....FOOD Is NOT supposed to be fun, it's supposed to be nourishing...right??? I haven't weighed since my 5+ on Friday, so I'll wait until Wednesday and see how bad we are doing or maybe how great.....The power of the mind and amazing thing!!!

SO anyway, I gave into him again this weekend....I think going out of town this Wednesday and being away from him for a while, will at least help me keep on track even if it is eating out and restaurant food that I have zero control over cooking methods, I just basically cross my fingers and hope they listened when I ordered, and then I dab the shine off my fish or chicken when they bring it to the table.... So we'll see how I do until Wednesday and then I'll weigh again when I get back on the 6th.

I know I can. I know I can. In know I can! I KNOW I CAN!!!!!!

OK, Friday and I'm up five pounds!!!!! GRRRRR

I know it is probably due to my period and water retention. But it has also been a not so on program week....and YES! I am blaming my period. It started last Saturday night, we really wanted burgers, so we got McDonald's and no I couldn't just get a regular homestyle, I had a BigMac and fries (and then they supersized them for free, since we had to wait, and threw in an apple pie...and yes I ate them all)....then Sunday, I wanted pizza, so we made our own....I bought dough at the local pizza place and put on my own toppings...goat cheese, blue cheese, ham and mushrooms.....mmmmmmm.....then the rest of the week was pretty on plan, except that Tuesday I wanted something sweet and had 1/2 cup of mocha almond fudge ice cream, and then Wednesday I went to the grocery store and walked by the fried chicken and had to have a piece.....so yeah! My diet was totally off last week, and between that and my monthly.....I'm up 5 lbs......

I'm seriously back on the program this week, it's easier without the mad cravings.....I travel for 10 days starting Wednesday, but I think I have the travel thing down. I'm making pumpkin muffins to take as breakfasts and I should be fine.......

GRRRRRRRR, but it's my own fault.....but then I know I can jump back on... I still want to lose another 20 lbs by the end of the year.... I think I can I think I can I KNOW I CAN!!!!!

Ugh,.....cramps and all!!!!!!

I hate being a woman sometimes. Well specifically once a month....Yes I got my faithful friend last night and I am in pain.... I have cramps, I am in a bad mood and want to eat everything on the planet, as long as it is breaded, fried or sweet and creamy.....

I often wonder why women get PMS and cramps and pain. I wish there were a magic pill, I think it's the reason why I won't stay faithful to my diet plan this week. I am going to try, I am making ground turkey spaghetti sauce and having it over rice noodles. I guess if it sucks I can always throw cabbage and other calorie light veggies to make some sort of stew soup, which I normally like but today I am just not in the mood to watch my calories, I really want a gigantic bowl of real spaghetti, or lasagna or pasta of some sort....mmmmm mac and cheese even sounds great, and a big bowl of ice cream.....

I'll let you all know what I really end up eating later.....

23.8!!!!! yahooooo!!!!!

OK so I can say that being back on the program has totally helped. I'm down 2 lbs from before vacation. A total of 23.8#'s!!! I never thought I could do it and continue to lose weight, this program is working, and it's been easy enough - as long as I am organized -

I have been trying new types of foods, yesterday I made mexican chicken and cilantro casserole. I cooked enough for a latino family and extended family. So needless to say I have enough for a few days of meals, thank goodness for the freezer, so that when I get sick of it I can freeze it in portion controlled packages for a later date. I also made meatloaf, yes turkey - god I've had enough turkey and chicken lately you'd think I would grow feathers - and it was rather tasty. So I'm excited about keeping cooking and eating my way to thin-ness.

I have also tried to walk everyday. I hate exercise, I really really HATE it!!! but I am trying to walk everyday and today I promise I will do my rubber-band weights.....

Now the next dilemma, finding winter fruits???? Is there anything that's not an apple or pear?

Woo-hooo!!!! Vacation #'s gone!

Yes!!!!! It's only Tuesday, I am down 6lbs since Friday and am 1/2lb below pre-vacation weight. I am being totally stick (with the exception of some salt, I need flavor) and AK and I are walking every day..... Today I'll have to do bands and walk, but it's coming off!!!! yeah!
AK is still complaining about feeling like "he has a stone in his stomach" and then rubs it like Budah....it drives me crazy.........but then his problem....he has to do this on his own. I can't make myself responsible for his dieting, but he's sticking to it. I think he will lose weight and would lose faster if he actually believed in himself.....

As for me......down 21lbs~!~ and counting.....

Back from vacation......sniff.......

Ok after two weeks of vacation...and boy did we have a great time.....and no diet...I was totally scared to get on the scale, I mean just think I had to recheck my luggage from Wednesday to Thursday and my luggage gained 4 lbs over night...yes I yelled at the airlines, I figured that AmericaWest is the airline who said I can't! but all in all, aside the airtravel....we had a great time.....so anyway back to weight, I onlu gained.......

5lbs!!!!!!

All in all not too bad.....huh! I was expecting a higher weight gain, so today I am back on, totally on the program, and I will lose thes 5lbs this week if it kills me. I already told AK my reward for the next 20lbs is going to be a day at the spa...and since it will be 40lbs I also get a trip to Vegas......so yeah rewards that are not food for once....I have to make other rewards available......

So anyway....I loved Cancun, next year though we have to go somewhere else.....without so many newlyweds (who by the way are so super miserable, never seen so many unhappy young people) but it was pretty, and fun and now ready for a next place to visit.....

Work is killing me, but it's a job, I want to be wealthy and not really work.....but then again, I would go crazy!!!! without work.....

Midway -Vacation.....

I have been on holiday for the last 7 days....and yes.....7 to go...... I think I've stayed pretty much at weight, no big bulges growing and my clothes are fitting the same if not maybe, possibly a bit loser..... though I must admit the food here is awesome, and then the ever flowing tropical beverages that with or without alcohol can be lethal to any diet......

On vacation we have done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!! yeah relaxing by the pool, floating, reading, maybe a little walking on the beach, but really minimal effort. As the days go by I start noticing we are waking up later and going to bed earlier...the true sign of relaxation......

Tomorrow for sure I'll go sailing a bit and maybe walk to the nearest town......

I have had to heal a bit, I got sun poisoning, yeah once you get it you get it every year, went to the hotel doc, got an antihistamine and cortisone shot 2 days in a row, and taking some antihistamine and some lotion against the rash...the rash is gone so I still have to be careful, but then again and excuse to find a shady spot in or near the pool and read....or nap....or nothing.......

I'll post more later....maybe even pictures (which we by the way haven't taken since we got here)

Scallops.....Mexican style...

Last night I made scallops, I figured I could do it mexican style...

Sliced onion, bell peppers, chopped garlic, sliced mushrooms, stewed tomatoes (NSA), a small jar of NSA tomato sauce, a bunch of cilantro barely chopped, two serrano peppers, and a bag of flash frozen scallops I found at the grocery store, the bag was 12 oz raw, so I made 4 portions out of it, and the juice of a couple of lines. Anyway....let it stew for a while....and over rice.....delicioso! if I say so myself. I got 4 portions out of it......

ok, back home and getting ready to leave again!!!!

I just got back from a week away. I was cringing at the thought of getting on the scale, since I wasn't totally on program last week, I mean I tried to make "good choices" but how can you resist chips at a mexican restaurant, or ordering something yummy with coconut milk at a Thai restaurant??????

So after a week, I got on the scale this morning and had actually lost 1.6lbs. I have no lost officially 20.1 #'s!!!!!! yahooo!!!!!

Now I have to think of strategy when vacationing. I am going for two weeks, yes I know, spoiled, but I need a vacation, a break and beach...so CANCUN here we come!

I'll try to go for the seafood and lean protein and stay away from mexican delicious-ness as much as I can. But will I be able to stay away from tropical drinks? I mean I know they are totally empty calories and I could save for other stuff, but a pina colada does taste good in the pool.

I'll try to post from the beach, but may be gone for a while..... ha!

Thank goodness for Airline seatbelts????

So I traveled yesterday....and this week is going to be tough since I have zero to no control over the preparation of my food. But I received a wonderful surprise when I sat down in my seat on the airplane......

I've lost 4 more pounds so that makes a total of 18.5...yahoo, but I can't really tell the difference, I have so much to lose, and my clothes are baggy to begin with, or stretch, so anyway, I had people ask me, "I bet you can tell" The truth is NO! I can't, or not yet....but anyway.....

Yesterday I sat on the airplane in my seat (on one of those little swamp hoppers) and I tugged at the seatbelt to let it out as loose as it goes, sucked it in, and buckled.....well letting my breath out and opening my eyes, I realized that the seatbelt fit just fin, I actually had to tighten it a bit.....and I fit perfectly... I mean my butt didn't touch the person's sitting next to me.... I had room.....Yahoooooo for me....

Today I went out for lunch, Mexican, my downfall. I ordered a chile relleno - at this place they don't fry it or cover it with stuff, or maybe they do, but I asked for it not fried, no cheese, no sour cream, no beans and extra lettuce tomato. It was great, covered in a tomatillo sauce. I ate 1/2 at lunch and will eat the other half as an afternoon snack......


So coolness.....I fit in the airplane seat!

Update on the scale saga....

I finally told AK that unless he was 400+ pounds (I researched on the scale we have it goes to 380lbs), that the scale should work...so after debating, I brought the scale over to him, was going to make him stand on it in front of me...he clicked and was about to step on....unitl....I yelled..."wait for the zeros".....

Ok it's not that he was too big for the scale...but to much of a M-A-N to know how to use it.....a bit on the retarded side too....but it was funny......

Also, last night I made some beef slime...bell peppers, onions, lean beef, etc. Enough to make 6 portions....but had to rinse the beef after cooking, I guess the mix of spices just made it taste so NASTY!!!!!, it reminded me of when we were kids rinsing the "Irish Stew" mom made under the sink...I laughed at myself, dumped back into the pan and stewed with just cayenne and lime. Irish stew.....I'll never forget.....

So anyway, I did bands yesterday...today I don't feel like walking or bands, so tomorrow I'll have to do bands and walking, too bad so sad....

Scales.....

AK wants to buy a new scale, the one we have doesn't work for him (yes, he is a bit on the heavy side too, and I think he goes over the scale max...heeeee......few seconds), I keep telling him to keep trying to use it and one day, it would record his weight. But I also understand him wanting to see even gradual little steps in weight loss. At our size, really we could lose about 20-30 lbs and still wear the same size clothes, so it's hard to tell by just your clothes.......

Why are we so totally dependent on the scale? I know it's just a number. Part of me wants to change the scale to kilos, so that at least the number is smaller. It gets smaller every week, but I want a huge drop and fast, and at least weekly drops keep me motivated.

I am totally bored at work this week, I fly to H-town next week so that will be a challenge again on my diet, but I know I can do it.....

AK and I go on vaca on the 21st, we're going for two weeks. I know it will be hard to stay on program, but then I just hope I don't gain my entire loss back.....If I could stay flat those two weeks...... I AM NOT GOING TO START GETTING ANXIOUS ABOUT EATING ON VACA, IT IS STILL 2 WEEKS AWAY .......... plus it is vaca!

not much more, we made slimey shrimp on rice last night, a bit bland, but looking forward to some more cooking adventures.......

Going to the spa for waxing.....ayyyyyyyyy

Learning to cook.....

I was getting sick of just a place chicken breast and 1/2 rice or shrimp and rice noodles. I wanted some combination food (food that has different foods, protein, carbs, veggies, all in one) so I tried and made delicious shepherd's pie..... I was so excited. I don't think it was anything like traditional shepherd's pie, but I tried and succeeded in making 8 portion, 2 oz protein, 1/2 cup carb, 1/2 veggie meal.......

I made it spicy by adding some serrano peppers and cayenne......

Oh an my secret weapon.....celery seed....it actually makes food salt without being salt....YES!!!! I am a salt addict!

So anyway....I am not stepping on the scale until Sunday.....or at least that's what I say now!

AK is back to being normal....so at least one less worry.......

I'm sick of work....I'm grouchy.....I think I'll go for my walk now....get this crabby-ness out of my system.......

I loved my dinner last night.....it looked like a ton, and it was just my portion that I am allowed on the program....yahoo!!!!!!

Weekend.......No movement on the scale.....6 more inches!

Ok 2 things that frustrate me.......

After AK left Friday morning, about mid-day I get an email that says..."peace? you know I love you!!!" - So after his acting like a baby in the morning he is a baby mid day, he couldn't call me like a grown up???? whatever....I I packed and off we went to San Francisco...more on the trip later.....

I weighed myself in the bathroom....283.5lbs! Yahoo down 13.5lbs!!! I decided to move the scale to the garage, flatter surface and not in the way (my bathroom is weirdly designed, so the garage is a better option for me.....) anyway, I moved the scale from the bathroom to the garage, 288.5, exactly 5lbs more....So, I move it back to the bathroom 283.5...hmmmmm.....well I guess there is a 5lb difference from the garage to the bathroom. So now I am 5lbs heavier than I originally thought, I guess I still am down 13.5lbs, but my start weight was over 300lbs....I though I started at 297, but no!!!!! I started at 302! OK I'm on my way down, so no worries about the starting point anymore....but looking towards a finish line.....slowly but surely.......but still.......ok one thing I know for sure...I will never be 300 anymore, or 290.....so at least something.......boooo-hooooooooo!....ya-hoo!!!!???? (For those of you who didn't know my exact starting weight, now you know....but don't spread the word....it's embarrassing enough to admit to myself - but "admitting there is a problem was the first step to fixing it" - so don't remind me of the number I was but the number I'm becoming)

San Francisco - I totally blew my diet out the ball park......the good thing is I still am at 288.5lbs as of last night, I am back on the program and will start going down, again.....so I didn't lose anything over the weekend but didn't gain either..... I did measure and have lost 6 more inches off my body, that is 12 inches since I started on Aug 3rd. So hey not bad right???? I think I am probably retaining fluids from this weekend change in diet, more salt, more sugar, more fat....so this week I'll be down for sure!!!!!

BTW...AK decided to stay home today...so he could "keep me company". So he keeps asking me, when am I going to make the chicken and turkey sausage I make for our protein snacks..... finally I said "when the meat defrosts" so yeah...back to "why is he such a baby".....probably because I let him, and/or make him one!

So off I go to meet my new best friend (my pressure cooker) and make some tender, juicy chicken breast and rice.....

Do men just look for arguments sometimes????

I've been wondering about this for sometime......

This morning AK was ready and on his way out, he had already said goodbye and from bed I said goodbye. I just wanted 5 more minutes. 2 minutes later he stops into the room and tries pulling the covers telling me it's time to get up. I have to wonder....WHY??? I said, I want 5 more minutes, I'll start doing my deal in a minute......

So from there we go to....."if you have nothing to do, look around the house, it's the little things that need attention".....

Of course I blew him off and told him to go to work, ahhhh but no! he had to keep mumbling and making snide comments until I finally got pissed!.....WHAT DO YOU WANT!!!! WHAT LITTLE THINGS!!!!

SO I get something like there's been an ice chest on the back porch "drying" for a week and it's still there....those kinds of things you NEED to notice.....

SO I started down my inventory of little things I do and he doesn't like.....

1. wash clothe
2. clean kitchen (he messes up as the cook)
3. unload dishwasher (since dieting there are alot more dishes and pots and pans to clean)
4. answer the phone/deal with all utilities/supplies/water/garbage/insurance/etc......

So as I kept going down the list he was all about "I better go now" yeah he better!!!!!

What is it....wanting to argue...I mean if you know me, you know I love to argue...and usually I win...so what's the point?????? "Negative Attention" ????? Like a 3 year old.....I'll have to pay more attention to the wonderfulness......

whatever......

UGH....and I'm sore from the freaking bands yesterday..... and I have to go to deal with one of those little things I don't do....the water delivery guy is here!

Body Sculpting Bands....Eeek!!!

OK, I did this for the first time today...I need to do twice a week according to the program.....

First I needed a straight back chair...to begin with I have no real chairs, I have a barstool....so it's taller than a regular chair but can adjust the movements, etc......

So logistics in place, I get started.....

Movements that seem so easy are so hard!!!! OUCH!!!!! But I did it!!!! Upper body check, lower body tomorrow....

I also started walking....so later this evening I'll go on my walk....I basically go around the neighborhood, bit it's all hilly so I go down, then up and down, the around and 30 minutes later I am out of breath and at home.......I'm hoping next week I can start doing to lookps in the same 30 minutes....or not....but I want to do two loops.....

On AK....why why why???????? So tomorrow we leave for the weekend, san Francisco... All he talks about are the wonderful restaurants and wants ME to plan out the weekend, basically around food...... I've pitched it back to him, for him to come up with....I'll struggle enough at restaurants, much more if I end up picking the restaurant for stuff I like....(noodles, cream, sauce, vitamin "G")

So anyway......more later......

Ok...beginning of week 5.....

I weighed in today, I've lost 13.5#'s and 6 inches off my body. It's also my period week. So I think that in 4 weeks I've done great!!!!! Yeah...cheers for me!!!!

On the little website for the 6WBMO, I have joined New Body University, I enrolled late (it's free) so I got accepted in the New Body Community College. It'll be fun, since just like this I need all sorts of support and stuff.

The program is super cheesy, but basically you are competing with yourself, not on pounds lost per week (which I check) but also how well you do all the stuff that helps you lose weight, drink water, walk, body sculpting bands, etc. So the more you do you get "prizes" or icons for your signature....super cheese, but hey if it motivates why not.....

The plan is to go to San Francisco for the weekend, AK of course didn't want to stay put, he claims he is doing the diet and then drinks red wine with dinner, but I must admit his portion size has come way down to normal people food. I hope he loses weight for him, for his health. But if not.....I'll be skinny and instead of calling us a double O couple we can be a walking 10!!!!!

Oh my god....can I get any cheesier today.......

Off to the store to buy tomatoes..........and then walking and then the bands.... I want my points this week!!!!!

The weekend! @#^%$^$*#!!!!!!!!!!!

OK......so we didn't go anywhere.....but Saturday was a tough day for me.... It seemed like I was hungry all day, but I really wasn't I just wanted to eat everything I wasn't supposed to.....I'm assuming it's because I'm about to get my period, but still I wanted, pizza, ice cream, cookies, fried chicken....Taco Hell......MMMMMMMMmmmmmmm, but I held out....by dinner time I was pacing the kitchen....opening and closing the freezer door, when finally from the living room cries AK, hey don't blow it, you've lost so much already, even you back titties are almost gone....gee, leave it to men to make you feel better.....I grabbed by grilled chicken and pluot and went off to bed.....

Yesterday I step on the scale and I'm up 2#'s.....I know I shouldn't get on the scale but once a week, and that our bodies change all week, and that I'm probably starting my period today or tomorrow, but gee.....I hate being a girl sometimes...!!!!! So I was ok on the diet all day, we cleaned house, washed clothes, etc......then last night I blew it!!!! Like BLEW IT!!!!!! I had McDondald's, Big Mac and fries for dinner~!!!!! YES!!! it was good, but then all night I felt like puking, I guess I really am used to no grease, and I went all out.....

Today, I am back on track, had my oatmeal and eggwhites for breakfast, and will have chicken and fruit for snack.....

I'm going to start walking around the block a few times for a fat burning cardio workout.....

I hate gaining, I hate breaking diet....no I'll stick it out, and hopefully will actually be down by Midweek when I weigh in again.....

No "weekend trip"....yay~~

So we've decided not to go away for the weekend....this will be good...today I'm headed to COSTCo to buy a boat-load of chicken, tuna and ground turkey. AK seems to be hanging in there, but of course is already complaining about the lack of salt, sugar, alcohol, etc.....

So I told him he could do it his way, I'd do it my way.....

He keeps looking at me and telling me I'm losing size, but hopes my boobs don't get smaller.....man I pray everyday that my boobs go down, I want to wear bra's with 2-3 hooks vs. 4-6 hooks....you know what I mean!!!!!!

I think I've lost some size in my belly.....but it's hard for me to tell.......

I lost one more lb! 12.5!!!! that's alot in my 3 weeks, 2 days...... I have to stop checking the scale....but I just want to double check, make sure it's not making any mistakes.........the scale that is.......

But yeah.....keep going...I can do it....and I'll be fine......

Back in the saddle....and back to reality

HB and I dyed my hair, really she dyed and I sat....AK made fun of us, as usual, but it came out great....best $17 I've ever spent....

HB left yesterday,boo-hoo,...we had fun, now back to the real world work, and diet.....ugh!!!!

Good news is that I lost another 1.5#s so cool a total of 11.5lbs. I'm going to stop getting on the scale, but once a week.

I start my workout regime today....basically walking....and then 2 times a week I'll do resistance bands....

AK has decided he's doing diet, and started yesterday...I believe it'll last maybe to the weekend and then it's all over. He wants to "go away" for the weekend.... I don't care I've figured out traveling pretty well, but UGH.....why not stay home and do nothing, or go to the beach....but we'll "do something" for sure......

Well of to work......

1 more pound, fishing and puking.....

Well Monday night I sneaked on the scale...paranoid I know...but voila, had lost one more pound...I was so happy and of course AK congratulated me....but in the meantime he still made slime.....whatever, he claimed it was a low fat/ low salt version but still had cheese and noodles, I ate less than 1/4 of what I usually would eat so that no feelings would be hurt, but felt full, and like I didn't want anymore....so yay my stomach is getting smaller and recognizing good/bad food.....

Yesterday HB and I went fishing, like real deep see fishing....we knew we were in trouble as soon as we left the doc and the captain says over the speaker....this ride will be bumpy, we will encounter 35-40 mi/hr winds and swells of 15-20ft.....neat, neither one of us had taken any Dramamine....so as we swelled and tried to fish, the first person started puking.....LOUD, REAL LOUD.... so of course, chain reaction HB and I puked and fished for 5 hours....it was loads of fun......we did catch 18 fish between the 2 of us, we let some go because the limit is 10 per person, so we were hoping for larger ones....at the end of the day, I think I have enough fish to last AK and I a few weeks....yay......

I felt hungover after the boat ride and all either one of us could think of is good ole vitamin "g" GREASE.....so we ordered a pizza and ate it down.....in no time, and took naps...we felt loads better......

last night for dinner AK had made pork for tacos, and I made some of the fish..... I had 3 tacos and felt full....so yesterday was not a good diet day, but had fun fishing.....

Today back on the wagon....eating my oatmeal and eggwhites for breakfast......

Yahooooooooo...10lbs.....

Husbands!!! Why!!!!!

So my little sister is visiting for a few days.... We've had a blast, she made me go kayaking (yes!!!) after I complained and whinged about how my fat but wouldn't fit in the kayak, bla bla bla....well it fit....and we road a double one, I in the back and little HB in the front, frankly I was surprised the kayak didn't turn into a 90 degree angle and just have my fat but in the water and HB in the air.......but it was fun and a workout.....

We came home and AK was pouting and complaining he was "starving"...he decided to try the program with me......so we ate, he moaned, I fed him and left to go fishing.....

When we got home from fishing I was received by the saddest sap in the world, moaning about being starving, and he couldn't eat since I wasn't there to tell him what to eat.....ok this got on my last nerve so I said, why not read the program,plus I told you to eat some protein and fruit.....well bla bla bla later....the rest of the evening was him looking at me miserable..... it got worse when I came out of the bathroom to shout....."3 more pounds!!!!!, that's a total of 9!!!!!!" So then I got the lecture.....eating is the only thing I enjoy, and I enjoy cooking for you and now you are taking that away.....No I didn't I said... he can cook for me all he wants as long as it is fish or turkey/chicken no oil and no salt......no noodles, etc..... I finally broke down and said he had to either support me or stop ruining or trying to ruin my program... I got an of course I support you but I can't do that program, starving all the time......

I went to sleep, a bit upset at him, but excited about my loss.....

Today HB and I went boogie boarding, yes she made me.... In the freezing cold water with no wet suit (not that I want to look like sham's sister, but still cold water) we had a blast, did some fishing and then came home for the tennis shoes to go for a bit of a hike.....Boy she's making me workout, but hey it's good for me.... so far today I've been perfectly perfect on my program......

When we got home, AK was sitting with a bowl of spaghetti......and said he had bought stuff to make slime for dinner (super yummy, noodles, ground beef, cream, butter and cheese) I'm going to have to say NO!!! and HB will help......he is also making pork in the oven to make shredded pork tacos..... What part of I'm on a diet does he not get..... I know he's just upset that he can't get motivated to be on a program and I am down 9#SE Yahoo...... But hey it took me forever to get motivated.... , one day he can get motivated or not, no one is forcing anyone and it's not a competition......

.....but I lost 9 lbs!!!!! Hurray!!!!!! For me!!!!!!!!

Today was a blast!!!!

Phew!!!!! 2 weeks, 6 lbs!!!!

Woo-Hoo.....

I think this program may be working. I've been on it for two weeks, and not perfectly on it either since I've been traveling sice I started on the 3rd....6lbs!!!! wow......so we'll see what happens this week, meanwhile....
I lost 6lbs, when I got home from the airport my husband made me spaghetti.....you could poison me with it, so out went the diet in case noodles....yum......I feel a bit bad, but not that bad, it was good.....

Yesterday my little sister arrived, I was great all day long and then at dinner I chose beef instead of the chicken-kabob's I had grilled for myself......sooooooo

Today is a new day and I will be perfectly, perfect on my eating plan today.....

Oh by the way, my husband has been so super annoying lately, wants to diet, but doesn't and doesn't know how and he was going to be on his own plan, and not and whine whine whine!!!! So this morning he gives me the news that he'll be on my program but I'll have to "help" him and tell him what to eat and not, since he doesn't want to read the book....so more work for me, planning two diets, when he'll give up after a day or two of doing it.....GRRRRRRRR

On my way........

Today is the day.....I am starting and also traveling......I'll be in a hotel for over a week.....I can do this....I know I can.......I have to......

Starting/Deciding.....

After thinking and thinking, I am starting a new program to help in the battle of the bulge....I am going to do the 6 week body makeover (6WBMO)....it's the one on the informercial, where you "blueprint" yourself and decide which foods and exercise are the best for you and your body type.....

I am an "A" that means that I have the slowest metabolism out there....yeah I already new that, you can tell by size.......

So the plan is to eat 5-6 meals a day... 2oz of protein and either a carb or fruit depending on the schedule.....my proteins have been reduced to chicken/turkey (white meat) and fish (low fat....excludes salmon for example)...fruits are the basics (plum, apricot, peach, grapefruit....no watermelon....darn!) and carb is 1/2 cup rice or potato....I can do this I know I can.....I am going to do this......

Background.....

I have been dieting all my life, My mom was fat (until she did WW and lost a ton of weight), my dad was fat, and I'm fat......I figured I was doomed to be fat. I do remember a time when I was at an Ok weight, still overweight but ok, I wore size 12/14 clothes........ahhhh those were the days.....
I married in 2000, and had just moved back from an expat assignment in Bolivia....I had managed to lose some weight while I was there, I cam back to the US and weighed in at 215.... I was happy I had gotten up to about 240-250lbs and felt good at my size 18/20....I figured I could keep losing......

Big mistake......since then I not only gained back what I had lost but my current weight is right around 280lbs. I still didn't think much of it until I renewed my driver's license....to see the difference in pictures.....it was shocking, sad, alarming.......

I've gone to dr's for checkups and stuff, and yeah my weight kept going up, but somehow they all beat around the bush and never really made me focus (how could they, I didn't focus or care)....

I have been thinking of getting pregnant, having children off and on, and I write it off to "I enjoy my freedom"......

I really think if I haven't gotten pregnant it's because I'm overweight....bottom line....and then, do I really want to be pregnant when starting out this heavy?????? Dr's say I'm insulin resistant, and that is the reason I can't do it....well....reality bites, but if I am insulin resistant, it's because I'm overweight and it may be harder to lose the lbs....but I'm going to do it.....

It's not about getting pregnant, or about wearing cute clothes in colors that are not red, black or navy blue (fat girl colors), really it's about me.....

I go on vacation and I want to scuba dive (I doubt I could find a wet suit in a size 24, and then if there was one, I'd be confused with shamu the wale......no thanks!)....I want to ride on zip lines, I want to horseback, without feeling sorry for the hores, etc... you get my drift......

So I am on a definite mission to lose lbs, get healthy, I am only 33 years old....so I can do it....I know I can......